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9:31 p.m. - 2007-04-01 family: 3 brothers, 2 sisters, mum, dad pets: 2 dachshunds, Vili and Nalle (born in June 1997), and a black furry mixed-breed called Roki (his mom is a polski owczarek nizinny (PON) and dad is a spaniel (?)) who was born in March or April 2005 location: Helsinki, Finland/Belgrade, Serbia The day I was born was 10.8.1987, Monday, and it was about 3 p.m. when my mum finally saw her first daughter. At home I had already three brothers waiting for me. Even my Serbian granny, who passed away in last December, had come to Helsinki because of my birth! She had bought already in 1981 a girly pink towel for the first child of our family because she was convinced that it was going to be a girl. The towel had to see 3 baby boys and wait 6 years until it finally found its rightful owner. My granny wanted my name to be Julia but my parents had unfortunately already decided to name me after my dad's grandmum who was born in 1887, exactly hundred years before me. In 1987 we lived in Munkkiniemi in a small flat but when my sister was born in 1990, the flat began being a bit too small and so we moved to K�pyl�, a pretty suburb in Helsinki filled with old wooden houses with big yards and lots of kids. I had friends there, like Kati and Nina who lived next to us, Liisa, who lived down the road, Pippuri (means Pepper), who lived a bit further, and so on. They were all older than me, born in -86 (except Nina), but it didn't matter, they were my best friends back then. I had a very happy childhood, full of fun stuff, games, summer, friends. Endless happiness and no worries, I could say. I played a lot with my brothers and their friends, they were my heroes back then, I was always so proud of them, they were almost like my personal bodyguards who could do anything. We lived in K�pyl� in a brown semi-detached house for 6 years. The yard was great, big enough for small children to play and mess around. Mirjam and Toivo, an elderly couple and our distant relatives, lived in the other half of that lovely house, and they always wanted us to visit them as often as possible. Me and Stepi (my youngest big brother with whom I now live here in Belgrade) were the ones who were there the most often. We used to pretend to be cats, we hid under the kitchen table and meowed until Mirjam or Toivo found us. It was so cute, they were always in the game with us and sighed where could those little cats be. Toivo always drew animals or told stories for me, he was really good at drawing, and Mirjam gave us money for ice-cream and sweets. She also took me to see the trains, there was this station nearby our place. She told me that she had taken my mum there in the 60s too, when she was a little girl. I liked it a lot. They both were so nice, they were the grandparents that I never really had since my Serbian grandparents lived 3000 km away, my mum's mum had her own problems and my stepgrandfather was a no-good ass who clearly had some mental disorder and/or problems. Anyway, in our yard we had rhubarbs, gooseberries, blackcurrants, and some other bushes too, we used to pick them in the autumn and mum would make jam and store it in the cellar. In the yard we had this huge pile of leaves that we collected every autumn, a hedgehog family moved into that pile of leaves every autumn. It was exciting to stay up late in the evening to see them going to the cup of milk we had left for them (that was before I found out that hedgehogs' tummies don't like milk). In 1992 I started playing the cello. I chose cello only because you could sit while playing it, I wasn't that fond of standing back then (and I still don't like it, I start feeling dizzy if I stand too long). It was kind of a surprise to me, one day my dad just brought me a violin and a cello, and asked me to choose which one I liked better. I continued playing cello for 14 years. Sometimes I wish I had my cello here in Belgrade because I don't want my fingers to forget how to play. I also like playing it (come on, why else would I have done it for 14 years?) and I've noticed that it's a good way to express my feelings sometimes. I grew up and went to school. I remember the first day in school, I sat next to Nina (not the Nina who lived next to us, this Nina lived quite near our school) and Markus and Pekko sat behind us. They always teased us and tried to draw something in our books, but we teased them back and drew in their books, too. Then if they continued drawing in our books, we shouted for the teacher and made it look like we hadn't done anything. It was fun, especially since Pekko and Markus had already been in the same kindergarten with us, but that's a whole different story. I didn't like comprehensive school that much, though I had some good friends there. Oona was my best friend since the third day of the first grade, we were truly best friends. We always played together, did things together (sometimes even stupid things that I regret) and had lots of fun. Nina was one of my best friends too, and me, Oona and Nina played a lot together. In the end of the second grade our teacher told us that our class would get a new student, but she didn�t know if it was a boy or a girl. We were all pretty excited, and when we started the third grade in autumn, we found out that we had four new students, two girls and two boys. They were all from the same school. I didn�t care about the boys, all I was thinking was if the girls were nice and if we could be friends. I just hoped that they wouldn�t be like the mean bitches from my class that no one else liked but themselves. Those two girls were Iiris and Vilja (surprise surprise). We got to know each other when they asked me to play dinosaurs with them! Soon we became really good friends and our friendship has lasted ever since that autumn day in 1996, and I really don't know the words to express my gratitude for their patience and everything that they have done for me during these years. In the third grade we moved from K�pyl� to Palohein�, which was even further from downtown than K�pyl�. It was a peaceful place, surrounded by other semi-detached houses and gardens. It was the perfect place to raise your kids, lots of forests, old people and playgrounds, and with all that I continued growing up. I even got a new friend, Maiju, who was a couple of years younger than I was. She was one of my really good friends but our roads separated when we got older. I sometimes regret it but then again, some things are meant to be. In 1997 I started doing aikido. A few girls started at the same time as I did but during the years every one of them quit. For a few years I was the only girl in the group, and it was.. well, I didn't like it very much. 12-year-old me alone with all those boys... Back then I was sure that boys had cooties and it was best to keep a distance of 3m, at least. I quit aikido in 2004 because after 7 years it wasn't fun anymore. I regret that too sometimes, but.. you know, 7 years really was enough.
I started the 7th grade in another school that was in downtown, together with Oona, Nina and Anniina. I loved Kruna when I came there, I had my friends with me, that was important. Iiris and Vilja had decided to stay in my old school but it didn�t matter at the time. I thought it wouldn't change anything, and it didn't. I got some new friends, got decent grades, did well and was a good student in every possible way. In the beginning of the 7th grade me and Oona's friendship started deteriorating for some reason and it affected me quite a lot. It was really tough for me to lose my best friend and it took me almost a couple of years to get over it but I really did it. I think it changed me quite a lot as a person, but like I've said so many times, some things are just meant to be. It's destiny.
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