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8:14 p.m. - 2007-10-24 When I got to the uni, I started feeling so sleepy that I almost fell asleep during plant physiology and that other lecture that I can't remember in English (something about plant communities in forests). It definitely made me feel better when the woman who works at the bakery on my street said that I've lost weight. Weird but nice. In Finland random people who you don't know that well would never come up to you and say that you've lost weight. But hey, at least it wasn't anything negative! Sometimes it feels like people say more mean than nice things to each other. Something to liste to: 5:29 p.m. - 2007-10-22 God I hate Mondays. We got a shitload of decorative plants to learn (species and families and so on and so on) today, I managed to damage my favourite black heels in a very very annoying way without noticing it before I got home, and I (well, it wasn't actually me) broke my grandad's old umbrella. He's dead btw, like all my granparents. Anyway, I never knew him that well, living in Finland all my life and so on, but my youngest and dearest big brother has told me a million times that I should buy my own umbrella in case I'm a bit worried how I'll manage this year at the uni because we have so much to do and almost everything is somehow linked to plants and remembering their names and families and subfamilies and characterics and pretty much everything. I like plants and I think they're fairly interesting (I guess I wouldn't be studying landscape architecure if I didn't think so), but.. you know, sometimes I wish they'd left us at least ONE easy subject. Like drawing, painting or English (1st year stuff). I'll never be studying English again. If I stopped writing here would I forget everything that I learned during the past 13 years? I'm feeling a bit PMS-y today, though it's a bit weird because if my calculations are right, I shouldn't be feeling like this for another week or so. My body is just so messed up, and I don't get why because I haven't been under that much stress during the past.. okay, week. The couple of months before that were pure hell. Wow. That sounds like I think I'm the centre of the universe and my worries would really matter. If you compare my worries with the ones of my friends, my worries are nothing, so I think I should really try to cut down on complaining. Anyway. You'd think that my body would bounce back after the stress factors (exams) have been removed, right? Apparently it's not like that. Should probably go to a gynecologist or something like the doctor told me in Finland. Sigh. Deep down inside I know that other people's lives aren't perfect either, but how the hell do they make them seem so easy and trouble-free on the outside at least? Most of the time I don't manage even that. Btw, I put together all my doodles that I've produced during the many hours spent procrastinating, all in all there's 12 A4's, I think. I named it 'Procrastination for President' and was in process of making the cover when I decided that inspiration had abandoned me, so I left it there on my drawing table. I was on the computer when I heard someone skimming through papers by my table, and it was nobody else but my youngest brother who had moved his laptop from his table to mine because the other brother had to use his table. Anyway, he didn't say anything to me, but still I'm not sure whether I like the idea of HIM seeing them. Something to listen to: 6:28 p.m. - 2007-10-19 The other night I dreamed that E came to see me, and when I woke up I couldn't help feeling a bit sad and disappointed. You know, the way you feel after a particularly realistic dream that wasn't unpleasant at all. Then last night I dreamed that other friends just decided to drop by, and we went shopping together. It's maybe got something to do with my desire to go shoe shopping. I have a mission - I need to find black high-heeled boots, referably with a spike heel (I took Mikael's last piece of advice), not more than 7 cm high because I intend to wear these boots this winter and I don't want to die. And they MUST NOT be plastic. Plastic shoes are totally wrecked after a couple of months of wearing, believe me, I know what I'm talking about. I know I'll have to pay a small fortune for these boots but I want them so bad and I'm so not going to settle for second best, because I've done that enough for a whole lifetime, and good shoes are always worth their price. And poor people (or poor students, whatever) can't afford to buy cheaply. In about 2 months' time I'll be back in Finland. Strange how fast time flies by! 2:00 p.m. - 2007-10-18 1) I enrolled the second year! It's pretty cool, I guess. The only bad things are that now I don't get to sleep as late as I want (max. 10 a.m. on some mornings, except on Fridays when I might have a lecture on the elements of landscape architecture planning or then not, because it depends on the group that I will be put in. I hope I'm in Thursday's group because then my Fridays would be completely FREE! And that would be amazing. The other thing that bug me just a bit is that I won't be able to travel as freely as I had planned to, in case I wouldn't enrol the second year. It annoys me more than I thought it would. 2) I'm now officially a brunette! And I don't mean just a boring brown brunette but a very strange-looking dark mahogany brown kinda brunette. I dyed my hair just 30 min ago, and as usual, I was a bit doubtful before I actually forced myself to do it, because if I didn't do it now I'd never do it. So I did it. When I saw the colour getting darker on my head, I wanted to weep because it looked so black and so strange that I actually had to wrap myself in my towel and prance around the apartment in search of my Marian Keyes book (it's still 'Anybody Out There') so that I wouldn't stay in the bathroom and accidentally jump in the tub and rinse the colour off before the desired 30 min. Then I felt better because I started thinking of how I dyed my hair in last February and how I rinsed it off too early because it looked so dark, and then the whole process went wrong and the colour faded after just a month. But maybe it was good because it was that boring kind of brown that people normally have as their original hair colour. THIS colour most certainly is not my original colour, and I kinda like it. It's so different than my previous blonde hair! Though I am a bit.. I dunno, I feel like L'Or�al had cheated me because in the package it says that this hair dye, called Toscana (L'Or�al R�cital Pr�f�rence 6.23), is blond fonc� noisette, and I thought it'd be a bit lighter. But who cares as long as it looks good, right? I can't remember whether I've got a landscape planning element thingy lecture at the uni at 2:45 or 2:55, but either way I'm going to be real late if I don't start getting ready now.
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