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2:29 p.m. - 2007-09-15 I have yet again come to the solution that my youngest big brother is a jerk and I really shouldn't pay any attention to what he's saying about me or stuff that I do. I'm getting good at it but unfortunately it pisses him off when I just stay quiet and don't answer to him. I can't wait for Wednesday, that's when my middle brother finally comes. Though on the other hand, before he comes I've had already THREE mid-term exams. It sucks that first I have to pass the first one, then IF I pass, I can do the second one, and if I pass that one, then I can try the third one. If people up there love me or a miracle happens or aliens steal the body of the petrography assistant, I'll pass all three mid-term exams and can try my luck with the exam. It's unfair that the exam is actually the easiest part because we don't have to write anything, just choose A, B or C. I mean, there's the 33% chance of getting it right and you could pass without really knowing anything. But it helps if you study a bit. Anywho. I took a career quiz yesterday, which was pretty interesting. You should go to http://www.careercruising.com/ and log on (username: nycareers, password: landmark) and take the test. Really. I like my results, though there's something that I don't understand - what's with all the computer stuff? I'm not good with computers! I mean, I'm better than my brother (for starters, the poor boy doesn't even know how to google stuff efficiently) and I know basic html (you have to with these diaries) but if compared with someone who really knows all that.. stuff about computers, I'm a total idiot. I have bad karma with any electronical stuff. Sometimes it feels like I just have to look at this computer and it crashes. My solution to this kind of situation is either A) press ctrl+alt+del OR B) pull the plug. See? I probably wouldn't make a good webmaster or a computer programmer. I like to learn stuff about computers but it's just so hard when they don't seem to like me the least bit. Sigh. Anyway, most of these professions are something that would be nice to try out. 1. Website Designer (my #1 career choice, how ironic) Landscape architecture isn't on the list. But it's sort of creative and you need some artistic skill to do it, so I think it might as well be on the list, alongside with interior designer and so on. I did the right choice when it comes to the career. What I don't know (still) is did I make the right choice about the place I study at. 9:28 p.m. - 2007-09-13 I don't like being sick. I can't breathe and I look like shit - for real, this isn't just useless complaining. The dark circles around my eyes are approximately the size of Africa, and I'm more tired than ever, if it's possible. Plus I can't breathe and I sound like a chain smoking chipmunk - be free to use your imagination. Isn't being sick wonderful? The only good thing is that I seem to have lost my appetite, and that's not bad at all. I have 3 mid-term exams next week plus one exam, they're all about petrography. I don't believe I'll pass all the mid-term exams (which you have to pass if you want to take the exam) but it's always worth a try. And no one can't say that I didn't try. Something to listen to: 11:12 p.m. - 2007-09-09 I have to remember to do three things tomorrow at the uni, and I have about an hour to do them all before I have to hurry to yet another maths lesson. I had some trouble with my homework which doesn't make me feel any better, either. It's like all bad things happen at once, you know? Everything goes silky smooth for a couple of weeks and then bang, you're covered with shit. But hey, that's just me. Right now even my three blankets don't comfort me. BUT, if I have to find something positive in my life at the moment, I'd have to say that I finally found out how L makes her lashes look so damn thick (about 1 mm each (yeah, I've been staring at her lashes for the past year)). Here are the instructions: 1:44 p.m. - 2007-09-08 I don't remember when was the last time I bought a book that isn't chick lit. My maths instructor called me yesterday and asked me to come later but as I was already on my way, I decided to pay a visit to my favourite bookstore. I can never leave a bookstore without buying something, and this time that something happened to be Sarah Duncan's 'The Birth of Venus' which is definitely not chick lit. It sounds really good but I've told myself not to read it until my exams are over. I have to hide it somewhere so I won't remember that I own it. A couple of days ago I talked with one girl at the uni who said that she's lost 20 kilos just recently, and I have to say that it shows. During the last week she had lost 3 kilos (!) by eating only meat and vegetables that contain starch. That's just amazing! I think I might give it a try one day, I mean the starchy vegetables. I don't always think that I look that bad when I look in the mirror, but the numbers on the scale.. they make me feel like a loser. And I know I could easily weigh 10 kilos less. Guess how much it annoys me. I don't want to be sickly thin like Keira Knightley, Renee Zellweger or Angelina Jolie (who weighs about 43 kilos, what the hell), I just want to feel good. I think Zellweger looked so much better when she acted in the Bridget Jones movies. I've never liked Angelina Jolie that much, she's not that beautiful for some reason (and her lips are way too puffy). Listening to Beyonc�'s first album makes me feel so 2003. I wonder how many things would be different now if I had done things differently then. Maybe I'd be thinner but I'd most likely live here anyway. I feel somehow melancholic, and the weather isn't doing anything to make me happier. It looks like it's going to rain any minute and it's still cold as hell. I had to sleep with three blankets last night, and for the first time during this mini ice age I was warm during the night. Three blankets! It's crazy. And I'm still tired. I think I'll take a nap or something. 9:30 a.m. - 2007-09-07 Anyway, I hope I'm not going to be sick because I have my damn exams right now. I remember how I was sick when we had our matriculation exams, and I was so pumped up with painkillers that I actually thought that my biology exam went well. Later it came out that I was lucky just to pass it. And these exams are more important than those matriculation exams because my whole next year depends on these exams. I try not to think about it too much, it just makes me scared as hell. I wish they'd turn the heat on, it's cold even inside the flat. I need two blankets when I sleep and my feet are still cold. Plus I feel sleepy all the time and unlike before, I don't find it hard at all to fall asleep in the middle of the day, even if I had slept 8 hours during the night. I just want these stupid exams to be over. I wouldn't say no to a vacation in some warm place, either. Preferably with palm trees, white sandy beaches and cool drinks. 1:35 p.m. - 2007-09-04 And you'll never believe this, but after asking around, I actually seem to be one of the students (super intelligent people not included) that has the most ESTC points! OR it might just happen that I hang out with dumb people, but I seriously doubt it. I think it's amazing. Even this slightly geeky girl (she's nice, so I don't mean anything bad by saying that she's geeky, she just seems like a person who studies her ass off on weekends and on weekdays, and maybe some more too) has passed only three exams out of 11. And I've passed 5. That's not much either but I'm the Finnish girl, remember? No hablo serbio. Anyway, it's taken me some time to adjust my mind to this.. Serbian system. Actually I still haven't succeeded in it but I might. If I manage to pass my exams and enrol the second year, then I have adjusted my mind and I can be proud of myself. I'm hungry but we only have Pepsi Max (but I personally like diet coke better), bread (and some ajvar to go with it) and popsicles that taste like something very very artificial. Gah. Need food. Something else than sodas or bread or sucky popsicles. Something real. I'm off to forage the fridge, I remember seeing eggs there.. 12:19 a.m. - 2007-09-04 Me and maths are doing pretty good. I can handle asymptotes now almost perfectly, which I never believed I could do. On the other hand, me and petrography haven't been doing so well lately. I'm going to be in serious shit next week if I don't start revising minerals tomorrow. I have come to the solution that what comes to my looks and weight, things can't be that bad because today someone slapped me on my thigh when I walked by, and a few days ago I counted three occasions when someone shouted something after me (something that was supposed to be nice). I don't understand why this is happening and I don't even like it that much (the slapping thing is my least favourite because you just don't go around TOUCHING other people), but I guess it's like with other things - if lots of people like it, it can't be that bad. Right? I just wish I could learn to like it too. But then again, I used to hate skinny jeans, skirts and diet coke, and now I couldn't live without them. Diet coke is actually better than the original one! I just arranged my dad's photos from his camera to this computer, and I found a couple of good photos from Valjevo (me, Marina and Tinkku are in them) and one from Budapest's airport, but Marina has my dad's shirt on in one of the Valjevo photos. We were at the monastery there, and her cleavage was too wide so she had to borrow my dad's shirt and put on jeans instead of her skirt. I had to change clothes too, but at least I had girls' clothes on. Anyway, she'd kill me if I published any of those photos without her permission. Which is kinda sad, because I don't look that bad. I'll go through some ecoclimatology stuff before taking a quick shower and then go to sleep. I need to be fresh tomorrow morning. I need to pass that damn mid-term exam!
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